Hearing my life

Filling in the missing pieces of information of life.

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  • Feb 7

  I’m sorry my depression is bothering you. Here let me turn it off.

  >.<

  • #depression
  • #annoyed
  • #other people
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• • 2
  • Feb 7

  I’m so tired of being upset.
  • #depression
  • #anxiety
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• • 1
  • Feb 17

  I think the worst thing about depression is that even on medication it still swims to the surface to make you feel heart-wrenched again. You can feel fine and mellow and sometimes ever happy and it just pops up as if it’s in hiding. It’s times like these that you remember that medication only masks the depression, it’s still there. 

  • #depression
  • #personal
  • #medication
  • #sad
  • #you'll get through it
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• • 2
  • Feb 22

  The first person ever just asked me what it was like to be depressed.

  And describing it was very enlightening. I feel like I understand my depression more now. It’s a very sad feeling but also feels kind of important, like it’s going to help me somehow. I hope. <3

  • #depression
  • #talking
  • #sad
  • #new feelings
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• • 1
  • Mar 2

  How did I fall into another depression slump? Nothing bad even happened. I hate this so much, I wish people could see how much I just want to be happy and believe me when I say that this isn’t some stunt for attention. If you’ve never experienced depression, I don’t expect you to understand. 

  • #depression
  • #slump
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• • 2
  • Mar 24

  Depression is not just about being upset about something, it’s this prolonged feeling of learned helplessness. All changes in feelings are temporary, and it becomes less about sadness and more of loosing who you used to be.

  Please don’t throw it around lightly like people do about being “bipolar.” It is an illness, the symptoms are different for everyone, and please don’t mock it by telling those depressed to just “get over it.”

  • #depression
  • #wisdom
  • #illness
  • #understanding
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• • 13
  • Mar 28

  Just because I’m trying to get happy again doesn’t mean my depression is just going to magically disappear. It means I’m putting up a stronger effort for myself. I’m still going to have slumps and it might not make me any better but I’m going to try. It’s harder than it sounds.
  • #depression
  • #help
  • #happy
  • #understanding
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• • 1
  • May 4

  Realizing you’re not depressed anymore is probably the happiest and most freeing feeling in the world. Knowing you defeated your inner demons, and you are now ready again to function and excel at life.

  It’s that feeling of wanting to run down the street telling everyone about it. 

  • #depression
  • #help
  • #happiness
  • #I got over it
  • #feeling
  • #euphoria
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• • 1
  • Jun 22

  Woke up still being in a great mood. I love not being depressed anymore.

  To everyone that is still battling with depression, DON’T GIVE UP! It might seem hard at the moment, it took me two years of therapy and lots of time changing how I thought about everything. But trust me, when you wake up that one morning, all the hard work is going to pay off, you’re go sit up and take this deep breath and just feel so elevated. 

  So please if you have depression and don’t feel like it’s ever going to get better, PLEASE see a therapist. They know how to help you, they spent six years in school or eight (masters vs PhD) learning how to help you. This isn’t someone that is going to judge you. If you don’t got out of your way to change, you’ll stay depressed and nothing will get better. 

  • #depression
  • #change
  • #happy
  • #great mood
  • #don't give up
  • #gets better
  • #help
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• • 1
  • Jun 22

  Quick note: Therapists do not prescribe medication!

  Psychiatrists do. That is why they have an MD. This whole, I refuse to go to therapy because I don’t want to be put on meds is bullshit.  There are a lot of people that got out of depression without medication. Do your research, don’t just use the TV as your guide. 

  1. Other quick notes: Therapists use different types of therapies include cognitive behavior, psychoanalysis, and desensitization. None of these include drugs. Most psychiatrists by the way (which are usually hundreds of dollars more expensive) don’t really talk to you that much. 
  2. Therapists don’t judge you, if you met one that did then they were the wrong one. You can get bad doctors, massage clinics, hair cutters as well but that doesn’t stop you from going to another one.
  3. :What you see on TV is soooo different. You’re not laying on a couch being asked “how do you feeeeeel about that”. You talk about what’s bothering you and they then find ways to fix it. I personally had to start a “3 positive things a day” notebook (which btw helped a ton)
  4. For the love of god, please just stop thinking they’re going to throw you into a mental hospital because you’re depressed. The only time that happens is if you’re on suicide watch, which is ONLY when you have things set up at home or you had tried in past 48 hours of your appointment. Those super ill people at mental hopsitals are usually found through actual hospitals.
  • #therapist
  • #psychology
  • #psychiatry
  • #annoyed
  • #excuses
  • #depression
  • #schizo
  • #bipolar
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• • Aug 15

  Sometimes you just have to cry it all out, write down your worries, and just let all the pain escape your fingers.
  • #quote
  • #depression
  • #sad
  • #crying
  • #writing
  • #moving on
  • #life
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• • 18
  • Aug 23

  And while I’m on the psychology stereotype rant.

  Schizophrenia IS NOT having multiple personalities, that is the cleverly named Multiple Personality Disoder. You might hear voices, not change your whole mental psyche. 

  And not all depressed people are suicidal and cry all the time, some are apathetic and realize that they’re over-thinking things but they can’t get out of it. 

  I hate what TV and movies have done to mental stigmas >.<

  • #psychology rant
  • #psych major
  • #schizophrenia
  • #multiple personalities
  • #depression
  • #annoying
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• • 3
  • Sep 6

  I’m so open about my anxiety and depression. Like I’m not ashamed of it.

  Is that normal?

  • #Depression
  • #Anxiety
  • #Mental disorders
  • #Open
  • #Ashamed
  • #question
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• • 13
  • Oct 15

  Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern, just the slow erosion of self, as insidious as cancer. And like cancer, it is essentially a solitary experience; a room in hell with only your name on the door.

  (Source: seekingxxhappiness.xanga.com)

  • #quote
  • #depression
  • #solitude
  • #depressed
  • #punishment
  • #cancer
  • #invisible illness
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• • 3
  • Nov 25

  First time I’ve been actually full on depressed in 6 months.

  I’m pretty proud of myself for making it this long. But current building event kind of made that final push. I’m going to keep up with the stuff I learned in therapy and hopefully I’ll get out of this episode pretty fast. But I know it’s going to be hard without a strong friend (seeing as right now I only have one close friend) or love relationship support.

  I’m not going to go back on Paxil until I need to. But I hope the people at school can be understanding because I just don’t feel securely attached to anything but my grades. Bleh. 

  • #depression
  • #life
  • #college
  • #friends
  • #love
  • #depressed
  • #personal
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About

I'm about to graduate with my BS in Psychology and then I'm headed off to grad school. I do have fibromyalgia, a chronic pain and nerve disorder, so I relate to invisible illnesses. I love learning new things, fandoms, and quotes. I'm here if anyone needs to talk, and I never stop looking for the positive in life.