Hearing my life
Filling in the missing pieces of information of life.
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When a song comes on and it was you & your ex’s song..
At first your like..
Then your like..
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Sometimes it feels like everyone is having more fun than me. I miss being invited to do stuff :/
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So my roommate just moved out today. She was the only roommate I had that I actually got along with and actually went out and did stuff with. She’s going to move in with her boyfriend. Now all I have left is a roomie that smokes all the time in her room (making the apartment smell), always has guys over, and hasn’t taken out the trash in 5 months. The bad news of the day :/
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Just found out my best friend doesn’t like classic rock. Le sigh.
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I think the worst thing about depression is that even on medication it still swims to the surface to make you feel heart-wrenched again. You can feel fine and mellow and sometimes ever happy and it just pops up as if it’s in hiding. It’s times like these that you remember that medication only masks the depression, it’s still there.
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The first person ever just asked me what it was like to be depressed.
And describing it was very enlightening. I feel like I understand my depression more now. It’s a very sad feeling but also feels kind of important, like it’s going to help me somehow. I hope. <3
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It’s only the first 30 minutes of The Blind Side and I’m already crying.
Damn you hormones.
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Bawling my eyes out now because I’m reading a manga where the girl is trying really hard to make the guy happy, but he’s not trying.
Like she’s grabbing his hand, and he’s not grabbing back. And she’s doing all the talking and he’s just smirking and nodding.
This is how almost all of my relationships have ended. I start noticing they are fading away so I try to make it better and it doesn’t work. I’m always the one trying because except for my last ex (who turned out to be possessive and obsessed with control) guys don’t fall in love with me.
They get bored and move on to the next girl. But I don’t end up being the love of their life. I don’t even get just being a girl they love. It hurts so much.
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I feel so bad for Damon.
All of his friends end up dying, all his lovers end up dying, and then both Catherine and Elena choose Stefan over him. Think about how much that has to hurt, for him not to feel like he’s loveable or feeling like he’s just a jinx to anyone that he loves.
I am a Delana for a main reason. Damon chose Elena over everything multiple times, even Stefan a few times. When Elena put herself in danger it was always Damon there for her in the aftermath. Sure Stefan was there when her parents died, but Damon is always the one checking up on her after everything is over.
He almost reminds me of an unloved child :/
I'm about to graduate with my BS in Psychology and then I'm headed off to grad school. I do have fibromyalgia, a chronic pain and nerve disorder, so I relate to invisible illnesses. I love learning new things, fandoms, and quotes. I'm here if anyone needs to talk, and I never stop looking for the positive in life.
